a dose of reality in dresses...

It's February. And on friday, it's Prom Night.

Well, I've spent this weekend on a scavenger hunt for gowns, shoes and such. I should've believed what my cousin said the year before (eversince the start of Junior year actually) that I should already be preparing for the prom. Was it a coincidence that in about 2 shops I've been to was playing some kind of old song with a line "Rome wasn't built in a day..." Creepy.

Anywayz, if you compare my prom prepping time to the stories I've read... // Girl ponders over asking guy to the prom and all that. Or the cliche, girl looses big V during that day // it's completely different. I mean, I've spent last week worrying and pannicking like hell over our Chemistry Investigatory Project, which, miracously, was finished in a day - 1 am to be exact. In books, the girl would be angst-ridden to either a.) get the guy or b.) get the crown. Well, even if I wasn't in my world of books, it's unlikely I'd be pinning for a guy or the glory, I'm sure of that. But I imagined the 2 weeks before prom to be, well... 'pampering time' or something. But I just had to procrastinate with BOTH my project and prom plans. Great. Well, even some of my friends and classmates are in a panic mode like me. I wonder how they've dealt? Seeing as if there are only a few "mega" places to shop (Glorietta, Robinsons or Megamall - 2 out 3 in my case) it's a surprise I didn't run into them.

Or maybe I did. I was just stuck in my own angst-ridden world at the moment: I was in a bad mood during the dress shopping, and at Sari-Sari, I seemed like a, for a lack of a better word, bitch to my mom and tita. Oops. Sorry I was mean.

Saturday, I spent 1 pm - 5 pm at Robinsons Galleria and after no luck on the hunt, we dared to explore SM Megamall for the suitable dress. We went to Karimadon where my mom and tita liked this blue green long gown. It looked... nice. Except my mind kept thinking the color didn't suit me and I was betraying Estelle (she liked that color!) in a way. Next we headed off to Cinderella. Chuchi saw this simple yet elegant and gorgeous (though I didn't want to admit at first) midnight blue tube-top ball gown. It was the last one and it was too big. Oh well. I also feared that if I did buy it, I might have the same gown as a senior since: a.) they are required to wear a ball gown, b.) it's gorgeous, c.) everyone will look at Cinderella and most likely buy there, and d.) it's blue! So we went to the department store and I saw Estelle's gown! :)) It looks nice. But thought she planned on wearing a cocktail and something blue green... hn. Well, I thought I would be wearing something orange. (According to my fortune, my lucky color is yellow orange) Anyway, our last stop (and hope) is at Sari-Sari. Estelle told me she found not much there. I also didn't. Only Mom and Chuchi.

They liked this brown- fancy it up a bit? Call it bronze. sheesh.- and gold dress. It's not floor length but maybe up to my ankles. The top is a corset which I, upon trial, immediately detested. How the heck am I supposed to eat now??? The color is... passable. Design? Too simple. The top is a tube, and I wanted a bolero but they didn't have any that would match so we gave it to the seamstress and added straps. We'll get it on Monday. Honestly, it wasn't the dress I was expecting... and I hated it at first. Now... it's okay. It's not the dress of my dreams (if I even have one!) but what can you do?

The exploration for shoes and a pouch was saved by Tita Ana. She had a brown dress (a.k.a the last resort) so she had matching bronze shoes and a bag. Saves me another day. We left the mall at its' closing time: 10 pm.

And you think I got rest on Sunday? If you consider scouting at 10 am (the opening of the mall, how ironic.) for strapless, nude-colored... umentionables and spending the afternoon studying for a chapter test in AP and Chemistry a walk in the park, then it's considered rest.

The prom should be, if not magical, which I highly doubt will be, at least pleasing for all this hard work. Rushed hard work. Or at least after the prom. I'm sleeping over at Mariel's house. :)

Oh, and I have this new thing for Katy Perry's songs. :)

as always

Procrastinating. It's midnight, I need to get some shut eye.

But for the meantime...

My Complete and Personal Profile according to Colorgenics.

You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to
hide these beliefs from the outside world. You are covert enough to try to
impress other people around you with your achievements and at the same time able
to put on an act of pretending to be 'humble' - being the same as everyone else.
It would appear, however, that whatever you are doing seems to be working out
O.K.You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having
difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would
really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that
you can put everything into perspective.In spite of all the opposition, you are
insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to
compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that
you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to
everyone who enters your sphere of influence.You are exhausted, over stressed
and you refuse to give in. You are trying to minimise the tension by being
physically active. It would seem that you are experiencing problems with an
existing relationship and try as you might, you find it impossible to alter the
situation because there is no co-operation. There is an urgent need for proper
understanding which may only be accomplished by communication. At this time you
feel that there is no 'give and take' on either side. This is resulting in
constant depression. You are irritable and it could be said by your nearest and
dearest that 'you are hard to live with'. You feel the urgent need to get away
from it all - even it's only for a little while. You may be finding it difficult
now to make firm decisions - you are restless and generally uptight.Be it
through unfulfilled emotional requirements, whatever the circumstances you are
experiencing considerable stress, be it mental or physical. To your credit you
are attempting to escape from this by endeavouring to create a semblance of
peace and serenity by refusing to allow yourself to be involved. You have the
strength to 'pull through' and all indications are that you will... perhaps
sooner than you even believed possible.

I'm too lazy and tired to give a reaction other than: whoa.

Ah yes. Annick, ever so eloquent.

Night.

... running circles in my head.

RAMBLE!

I'm supposed to be either a.) sleeping or b.) studying for AP. But after reviewing non-stop (with the occasional distractions of my cousins ♥) for chemistry, I feel really, really tired. Why not sleep? I don't know. I guess I really am a nocturnal person. Hahaha. Vampires. Or, like the saying goes, "Old habits die hard" I'm just procrastinating.

When is Christmas Break? Today is the 1st day after the sembreak. Today was also the day my classmates saw my new haircut. No comment on that. So anyway, I felt really bad! And not because of the haircut, but because I haven't been productive during the rest days! Well, it is a rest day afterall, but that's not an excuse! I'm a THIRD YEAR student! I can't slack off now! [[Though I really am.]] Earlier, I had a conversation with Mariel. From how it went to interpreting poems about housewives to campus tours then college courses, I dunno. But anyway, it's already the third quarter and I still don't know which course to take! All I'm sure is that it's not medicine. Anyway, Mariel told me it would be best if I got one English/Computer related since they are my strong points. I admit, journalism is pretty tempting. But I want to have a stable job when I graduate... I'm the eldest after all! And I have 2 siblings! One will start schooling just after I graduate! So what I need is a course related to my strong points and get a decent and stable job afterwards. Hmmm.... what about becoming a teacher? Hell no. What a sick joke.

-end ramble-

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