November 4, 2008

... running circles in my head.

RAMBLE!

I'm supposed to be either a.) sleeping or b.) studying for AP. But after reviewing non-stop (with the occasional distractions of my cousins ) for chemistry, I feel really, really tired. Why not sleep? I don't know. I guess I really am a nocturnal person. Hahaha. Vampires. Or, like the saying goes, "Old habits die hard" I'm just procrastinating.

When is Christmas Break? Today is the 1st day after the sembreak. Today was also the day my classmates saw my new haircut. No comment on that. So anyway, I felt really bad! And not because of the haircut, but because I haven't been productive during the rest days! Well, it is a rest day afterall, but that's not an excuse! I'm a THIRD YEAR student! I can't slack off now! [[Though I really am.]] Earlier, I had a conversation with Mariel. From how it went to interpreting poems about housewives to campus tours then college courses, I dunno. But anyway, it's already the third quarter and I still don't know which course to take! All I'm sure is that it's not medicine. Anyway, Mariel told me it would be best if I got one English/Computer related since they are my strong points. I admit, journalism is pretty tempting. But I want to have a stable job when I graduate... I'm the eldest after all! And I have 2 siblings! One will start schooling just after I graduate! So what I need is a course related to my strong points and get a decent and stable job afterwards. Hmmm.... what about becoming a teacher? Hell no. What a sick joke.

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November 2, 2008

Pointless

It's NaNoWriMo! :)

But I'm not joining. It'll be hard to balance my schoolwork... especially now that I'm a Junior AND I'm trying to make-up for the last quarter. *Sigh* I wish I joined last year. Problem is, I was having a Writer's block [[aww. I'm a writer! =))]] Writers from FictionPress are hooked on NaNoWriMo, even published authors like Meg Cabot! Wow! Maybe next year I can...

Well, I anyway, I want to ramble and roar about some stuff today. Now that I think about it, the topic is probably my pet peeve: story endings. You see, I was browsing through the National Bookstore Website searching if Revelations by Melissa dela Cruz is already available. That was when I stumbled upon another book, Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke. I love the Inkheart series! The genre is fantasy, another favorite aside from romance. Anyway, the mentioned is actually the final book of the Trilogy. I was so excited! I've read the 2 books last year, borrowed from the library. I was actually planning on buying all 3 books. But after reading the reviews of those who have finished reading it (finding some spoilers as well), I don't think I'll buy it, let alone read it anymore. Here's the thing: Farid and Meggie won't get together. But I love that pairing! A girl from the real world and a boy from a different world, from inside a book! Aside from the obvious, how can it not work out?!?! Although the reviews say it has a great ending, I still couldn't force myself to read it. And here's the thing: I don't force myself to read! Except textbooks of course.

I read because I want to travel, explore new things, play with emotions. I read becuase I want to escape. Blame it on Disney, but I'm a sucker for happy endings. I read a story from Fictionpress entitled, Jonnie the Girl, I loved it! That is until the unexpected and tragic twist... then realizing that it was a true to life story! I got so depressed, I cried that night and was all gloomy the next day. See this is what I hate. I'm not naive to not realize that life can be a bitch, so this is where books come in, where there are happy endings, goodness and love conquers all, blah blah blah. It may seem like a childish fantasy, but it's like my drug you see.

So why bother with tragic endings? Fiction is supposed to be my escape. It's pointless to read drama if it goes on until the end. I admit, I like heartaching stories, thinking that the ending will be sweeter through it all. But if the story is left as is... NO!

And speaking of Revelations, I read a review that it's ending is... disappointing. Well, that's okay. Because I know there is still 6 more books out of 9 to make it all better.

So there. RAWR.