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I've just finished a book I've recently borrowed from Estelle. It's entitled The True Meaning of Cleavage (by Mariah Fredericks), and trust me, it's not as liberated as the title speaks of. It's not even a romance story, but one about friendship. What true friends really are- companions despite everything else, kindred souls. Somehow, the story helped me figure things out, some things that just happened within this last week before the sembreak.

There was an ultimatum earlier today. I had to decide between 2 of my best friends: my sister-cousin and one of my FWENDZ. Both celebrated their birthday this October, the former just yesterday and the latter on Monday. Here's the dilemma: I promised my cousin that we'll watch HSM 3 tomorrow (even though I'd prefer to watch The Strangers) but then my friend suddenly told of her celebration tomorrow as well. Of course, I already had other plans on Friday before the other two, a movie marathon. But of course, I couldn't say no to my cousin, and I figured they'd understand why I can't come (yet again.) But then the celebration thing came up all of the sudden, and I didn't know what to do. I thought she said she didn't want to celebrate it the first place so...

It was hard deciding. But I guess, blood is thicker than water, right? I hate that quotation. I think it's stupid, to be blunt.

So how was this related to the book? What's the true meaning of Cleavage? It's the separation of the pair.

I was miserable for most of today, for this week (this very slow week) to be exact.

But there was another thing bubbling inside of me, aside from misery. My writing muse. Writing Gakuen Alice Fanfiction for 2 years... I almost forgot how that felt. I suffered from a Writer's block. That's when I started writing this blog. It's like forgetting to write fiction and focus on... reality. Epiphanies soon followed after. Then a bit of fear.

So what got me energized to write again? Lack of books to read, boredom, reminisces and the song from the movie Anastasia "At the Beginning." (I love that movie and that song.)

BTW, completely random, I'm listening a song from Ella Enchanted "Once Upon A Broken Heart" - something I discovered after watching some Howl's Moving Castle AMVs.

Well... sembreak. Here it goes.