AHAHAHAH. update.

Wow. How long has it been? ... who cares. :))

So what should I ponder to ramble about this... evening. Was that even grammatically correct? ... who cares. [[yet again.]] I'm going to start a list of things that has happened since... I can remember. Okay, since my last post which was about... holy hell! I haven't updated since PROM!?!

Okay. Let's start with that.

1. Prom was (unfortunately) boring. My friends and I spent the evening in the girl's bathroom (It's a 5-star hotel bathroom so it isn't icky!) contemplating on why Mariel bought shoes she couldn't walk on.
2. ... ah yes. Chemistry Investigatory Project. Well, it sucked. (Of course.) I mean, it's hard to accomplish such a thing by yourself. I mean, come on! ALL of my GROUPMATES were part of the COTILLION! Anyways, it's what I'd like to remember as a "Been there, Done that." sort of thing.
3. What else? Skip the exams and procrastinating bits... ah yes! The recognition day. Yours truly was shocked to find out that she is the IT awardee (I want this award!) AND CLE awardee (shockers. really.) AND rank 4 in our batch! WOW. FOUR! One more and I could have a medal! Anywayz, while I was shocked to the bone, my friends (another shock as well) weren't surprised. Well, they beat Mom's reaction thought. She slipped as we were hurrying to get the CLE award.
4. Dad got me a Nokia E71. It's RED. I love it! I try to tweet with it daily! (Yes. I have a twitter account now.) My cellphone's the same as Chuchi's (hers is white) and my pediatrician. (Holy hell! My phone's the same as my DOCTOR's!)
5. Dad also got us a PSP. (4GB, slim, white) Though Ally's been hogging it most of the time. Like ALWAYS.
6. I got a (quoting Jom) Big Ass USB. It's an external RED harddrive. I've been downloading reflexive arcade games since.
7. Estelle, Mariel and CJ went here last Holy Week. Procession and stuff. "Annick! Ang banal ng pamilya mo!" LOL.
8. We (family) went to NBS at Cubao and I bought TONS of books that I still haven't finished reading cause of AHEAD.
9. AHEAD. My review center with Kuya LA. Kuya Dan's in the afternoon class.

I'll expand on the latter topic next time. This blog post is DONE.

Movies watched AND adored (with Jom and Therese): Watchmen & 17 again.

Watched alone and adored: Cruel Intentions.

Random.

of all the ironies and supposed to be's...

"Expect the Unexpected." - The Book of Answers 02.o5.o9

What I expected: I'm going to have my period on o2.06.09
Outcome: Positive

What I didn't expect: It's going to rain on 02.06.09
Outcome: Positive

This tells us what?

I woke up early this morning, for once. Most probably because I slept early, for once. I had a few minutes to myself so I turned on my iPod and shuffled. But before that, I asked the question: What's my prom going to be like later? Hoping the song that would play is a suitable answer. It played a song from the movie Anastasia, one of my favorite movies when I was a kid. It played A Journey to the Past.

I thought at first: how? It is my first time to attend a prom, dress up all fancy for a school event with my friends. Then during the mass I realized that the event later already had memories in it. My friends and I imagined about this day eversince we were in the fifth grade. In first year, we made plans to go together... and in a few hours we will. My classmates said they were excited to see me all dressed up since I, allegedly, am not girly enough for them.

The prom already held memories of my younger self. And I hope that later, it would be more memorable.

It just sucks that today is my first day (I feel fat!) and that it's pouring.

----o

Lyrics: A Journey to the Past

Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here

People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear

Or how the world can seem so vast
On a journey to the past

Somewhere down this road
I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams just can't be wrong

Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Finally home where I belong

Well starting now I'm learning fast
On this journey to the past

Home, love, family
There was once a time I must've had them too
Home, love, family
I will never be complete until I find you

One step at a time
One hope, then another
Who knows where this road may go

Back to who I was
Onto find my future
Things my heart still needs to know

Yes, let this be a sign
Let this road be mine
Let it lead me to my past
And bring me home
At last

years ago, now a step away.

ohmyohmyohmyohmy...

The prom is tomorrow.

... should I say something monumental or a cliche reaction/expression/curse like s***? Nope. Definitely not. I'll just write about my day.

Just after our Thursday worship at the auditorium, my shoe broke. As in really broke. It doesn't even have heels! It's just... years old I guess. But good thing it was only, completely smashed after my last "class" before the program. Good thing Erika lent me her flip flops- thank you! So the teacher's day presentation went by... fast. Mrs. Villas gave us, her student-teacher substitutes, a bar of Hersheys Chocolate which my friends and I devoured the minute I got back with it.

Oh, and one of my batchmates lent me "The Book of Answers"- I love it. Made my day. :) Or I hope it will, tomorrow.

I asked: Maayos ba ang prom namin bukas?
It said: Expect the Unexpected.

Which I don't really get since you expect the unexpected, then the unexpected will become the expected, right? Anyway, here's another one which I laughed upon seeing the answer:

Madadapa/Mapapahiya (I can't remember which I asked!) ba ako sa prom bukas? Answer: NO.

Just plain no. That's positive! :)) But I have to admit, the last part is my favorite:

Yayaman ba ako?
Answer: Yes.

Just plain yes. YES! Woohoo!

This afternoon, I went to Index Salon for an aromatheraphy. Wow. My hair looks so straight, smooth, silky, light and even smells nice! So sleek. It's like it's refreshed again! That night, Therese and I practiced walking in our heels whilst watching American Idol and helping her (Peanutz), study for a test.

Peanutz gave me her annual picture. She looks just like her dad! :)

I just finished packing my overnight bag for the sleepover tomorrow at Mariel's. But I doubt there will be much sleeping! She'll pick me up at 6:oo and we're all going together! Me, Mariel, Estelle, Carllyn and Bandoy! WOW! Just like what we thought of during our first year. -sigh- Awesome. :)

Thoughts about tomorrow? As of now, I'm... passive. I mean, I'm not nervous or excited as to loose any sleep on it. Maybe I'm just... going with the flow. I mean, I am thrilled... especially for the Agnes' After Party at McDonalds! How cute! The whole class in gowns eating fast food! In the middle of the night as well. I can't wait.

Oh, and I also can't wait to accidentally step on a "Narra tree." You see, one of my closests and longest-time-ever friends shared to me her heck-of-a-drama love life earlier today. And like the rest of the barkada, who thinks the guy isn't cute physically (I didn't want to judge his looks), I agree that he doesn't deserve her. He's a jerk. I want to "accidentally" step on his foot. Or feet. My friend deserves a whole damn better!

But other than that brutal urge, I think prom's going to be amazing.

Goodluck Juniors and Seniors o8-o9!

poor unfortunate feet...

Even lady guard greeted me "Good morning ma'am" as I got off the car wearing the most formal blouse I own, my mom's khaki colored slacks and Tita Ana's white strappy sandals with a 1-inch heel. -sigh- Presenting a CLE teacher. I looked like a teacher according to my family, friends and classmates! It's a good thing since it means I'm wearing proper clothes but I also got a bit annoyed by their continuous exclamations of "Wow! I didn't know you have curves!"

Excuse me, I'm female too you know.

Anyway, I spent half the day doing nothing (oh, I played Sims University @ the Discipline Coordinator's office! Nice. (: )at all in those shoes that hurt my toes. Our "classes" would begin after lunch. I had to spend 200 minutes standing and being teacher-y. It was okay. The students were a bit noisy but at least they're obedient. And I'm glad that I substituted for an elementary teacher, I don't want to teach a High school class, except maybe my batch of course.

The spoilers of my day are the homeworks from the missed classes and chemistry investigatory project and health. I got my results for the quizzes in chem and they were okay: 28/35 and 26/35 - I expected to get lower. But we have a retest on Monday. Great. How am I supposed to study? I'll get home from the sleepover at Saturday afternoon and our fiesta is on Sunday. But I have a bigger thing to worry about: getting our Flavored water tested at BFAD. What the heck?

Next week, I'm to report in AP and Health as well. -groans- When will we have a 'break'? As in, to shake off our (I'm assuming) "hang-over" from the prom. Speaking of that event, they gave out the scented invitations today. Gah. Only a day away and it's prom! And I'm still devouring food like a pig.

there's always a first...

The week of the prom, and it's like the only thing we ever talk about! Today we had our prom orientation- about proper etiquette, dress codes, the program and other preparations. After school, mom and I picked up my gown at Sari-Sari. Let's just say that I saw it in a better light now. Hell, even the 'fashionistas' at home (in other words, every female plus one gay) thought it was nice. Now all I need to worry about is walking in those heels and my hair and make-up. I can practice not breathing in between. Heh. It's even ironic that our lesson in AP - French Revolution - has somehow made a connection to my dress.

French Revolution - abuse of Nobility's powers and priveleges - King Louis XVI - Marie Antoinette - gowns - corsets - my gown. Get it?

Anyway, another shocking incident today, or tomorrow to be precise is me (and Erika as my partner) being the Student Teacher in CLE for the grade five students. Naturally, I worried about what I was going to wear. A teacher in Chucks? I'd like it but no. "It's simply isn't done." -Now where have I heard that? Good thing I fit Chuchi's slacks and my mom's shoes. Bandoy is also a student teacher- for Filipino! Go Tatay! :)

Gah. I need to sleep. But I have to do my filipino homework first.

I still LOVE Katy Perry's song Thinking of You. :)

a dose of reality in dresses...

It's February. And on friday, it's Prom Night.

Well, I've spent this weekend on a scavenger hunt for gowns, shoes and such. I should've believed what my cousin said the year before (eversince the start of Junior year actually) that I should already be preparing for the prom. Was it a coincidence that in about 2 shops I've been to was playing some kind of old song with a line "Rome wasn't built in a day..." Creepy.

Anywayz, if you compare my prom prepping time to the stories I've read... // Girl ponders over asking guy to the prom and all that. Or the cliche, girl looses big V during that day // it's completely different. I mean, I've spent last week worrying and pannicking like hell over our Chemistry Investigatory Project, which, miracously, was finished in a day - 1 am to be exact. In books, the girl would be angst-ridden to either a.) get the guy or b.) get the crown. Well, even if I wasn't in my world of books, it's unlikely I'd be pinning for a guy or the glory, I'm sure of that. But I imagined the 2 weeks before prom to be, well... 'pampering time' or something. But I just had to procrastinate with BOTH my project and prom plans. Great. Well, even some of my friends and classmates are in a panic mode like me. I wonder how they've dealt? Seeing as if there are only a few "mega" places to shop (Glorietta, Robinsons or Megamall - 2 out 3 in my case) it's a surprise I didn't run into them.

Or maybe I did. I was just stuck in my own angst-ridden world at the moment: I was in a bad mood during the dress shopping, and at Sari-Sari, I seemed like a, for a lack of a better word, bitch to my mom and tita. Oops. Sorry I was mean.

Saturday, I spent 1 pm - 5 pm at Robinsons Galleria and after no luck on the hunt, we dared to explore SM Megamall for the suitable dress. We went to Karimadon where my mom and tita liked this blue green long gown. It looked... nice. Except my mind kept thinking the color didn't suit me and I was betraying Estelle (she liked that color!) in a way. Next we headed off to Cinderella. Chuchi saw this simple yet elegant and gorgeous (though I didn't want to admit at first) midnight blue tube-top ball gown. It was the last one and it was too big. Oh well. I also feared that if I did buy it, I might have the same gown as a senior since: a.) they are required to wear a ball gown, b.) it's gorgeous, c.) everyone will look at Cinderella and most likely buy there, and d.) it's blue! So we went to the department store and I saw Estelle's gown! :)) It looks nice. But thought she planned on wearing a cocktail and something blue green... hn. Well, I thought I would be wearing something orange. (According to my fortune, my lucky color is yellow orange) Anyway, our last stop (and hope) is at Sari-Sari. Estelle told me she found not much there. I also didn't. Only Mom and Chuchi.

They liked this brown- fancy it up a bit? Call it bronze. sheesh.- and gold dress. It's not floor length but maybe up to my ankles. The top is a corset which I, upon trial, immediately detested. How the heck am I supposed to eat now??? The color is... passable. Design? Too simple. The top is a tube, and I wanted a bolero but they didn't have any that would match so we gave it to the seamstress and added straps. We'll get it on Monday. Honestly, it wasn't the dress I was expecting... and I hated it at first. Now... it's okay. It's not the dress of my dreams (if I even have one!) but what can you do?

The exploration for shoes and a pouch was saved by Tita Ana. She had a brown dress (a.k.a the last resort) so she had matching bronze shoes and a bag. Saves me another day. We left the mall at its' closing time: 10 pm.

And you think I got rest on Sunday? If you consider scouting at 10 am (the opening of the mall, how ironic.) for strapless, nude-colored... umentionables and spending the afternoon studying for a chapter test in AP and Chemistry a walk in the park, then it's considered rest.

The prom should be, if not magical, which I highly doubt will be, at least pleasing for all this hard work. Rushed hard work. Or at least after the prom. I'm sleeping over at Mariel's house. :)

Oh, and I have this new thing for Katy Perry's songs. :)

revitalizing

Tomorrow is the school fair! Hooray! :) And on Saturday is the much awaited, of course, cheering competition. We watched the final dry run today with the props that we, the props people, have labored for oh I'm not sure, a week perhaps? Anyway, I'm glad it's finished. But that reminds me that we still have to decorate the jail booth-- after years of waiting, I'm finally going to experience what is to be a JAILER! woohoo! Anyway, how are we supposed to decorate a jail booth (supposed to be fierce looking and stuff) with a theme "Revitalizing the Rosenan Spirit?" Roses with thorns? Idea rejected.

As we, namely me and Eevee, were painting the jail, a few elementary students came up to us and asked about the booth. My god. I'm good in English when it comes to writing but an articulate speaker? Give me a script please. But that's when I realized how different we (as in my batch's generation) from the elementary students nowadays. First of all, the english thing. I know the school is trying to promote the language through speak for a star but... we're Filipino for pete's sake! Secondly, I think there's something disturbing about their liking to be jailed. Yes. They actually want to be jailed. How sick (if that's not a strong word) is that? One of them actually asked me if I'll let her in if she pays me 200 Pesos. Like I said, twisted.

On the Cheering Competition this Saturday, all I can say is: wow. The performances from all batches were so amazing! I was cheering all throughout my batch's performance and not because we're required to do so as a proof of loyalty and support but because I really couldn't help myself. And to think I doubted our umm... unconventional choreographers. The Freshmen were cute and the Sophies, whose choreo is friends with ours, are okay. The Seniors however... wow. A perfect performance: routine, cheer and props. Not to mention originality. They might be the ones to break the so-called 'curse' wherein for 7 years, no Senior class has ever won the cheering. But I think... feel that their cheer lacks something... SPiCE I think. Something that my batch has... or maybe this is just my loyalty speaking. But either way, I'm excited for Saturday. We have batch jacket! It's a shade of blood red (I seem to have a penchant for that color since Junior year) with our surnames at the back. How official looking is that?

But even if I can hardly wait for Saturday, I'm still excited for tomorrow. We're going to spray our prisoners with water mixed with gold glitters. Fun. :)

Red-hot.

P.S. Oh and by the way, I decided to make a list of books I have read since the first day of the year. This should be fun... and long.

just BLiNK

I took the Ateneo College Entrance Exams today.

Let me emphasize that statement.

I, a mere third year student, took the Ateneo Colleger Entrance Exams today as the qualifiying test for AJSS (Ateneo Junior Summer Seminar).

whoa.

There were lots of students and most of them didn't even look like High school juniors! There were 33 rooms I think. And about 35-40 each room. Only 70 students will be accepted.

whoa. I repeat.

The English part is easy. The Mathematics? Um. Not. Ever. Impossible. Good luck sucker! Hn.

I only started to study yesterday night since last week, I've been arriving home at 7 PM because of Cheering Practices. (Props yet again.) I was also out looking for bamboo (and not because of Pandas) for props materials. So yeah. No time. Well, I do have time but I was already too tired and a bit lazy to work. What you sow is what you reap.

It'll take a miracle for me to be chosen, to put it quite bluntly. But like what our (Me, Mara, CJ, Josette and Gascon) parents told us: It's just a practice test. Now I know what to expect at the Entrance test of Ateneo. Weird. I'd like to study there yet I still don't know which course to take.

Anyway, the exam was from 7:30 to 12:30 with a ten minute interval (spent lining up at the ladies' CR) There were some ironies or coincidences perhaps, that day.

• My proctor is Mr. Solis - a character from "Karalitaan", a play we just read at Filipino class
• When we are about to pass our exam, as if on cue, my watch beeped. It was alarmed at 12:25 and I didn't bother to restart it. Just a coincidence, a silly one.

And when I arrived home, I fell asleep (that is, after I checked my e-mail) until 4:30 PM.

Like I said, whoa.

I hope I'm wrong

The start of the year looks... grim. It's only been four days but I've already had a fair share of mishaps. A list...

• An absurd video of me & Peanutz going wacko over a cockroach. Directed by Jom with Sirius Black and Harry Potter as extras. [[At least there's a laugh...]]
• Almost missing the first day of the year mass... insert an alternative and the punishment is stuck in the house... and to think I rarely wanted to go outside!
• PROCRASTINATION running circles in my head! Chemistry anyone?
• Braces. My teeth hurt and I feel uncomfortable talking even smiling. It's like I have... hard gum stuck on my lower jaw
• Tamora Pierce books - A new kind of read for me. It's still fantasy but with a touch of the Middle Ages - pages, squires, knights, chivalry and all that...

Let me ramble on Tamora Pierce. I've recently downloaded her e-books and I started reading the first 2 books of "The Song of the Lioness quartet"... I didn't want to continue reading the last 2 books because (such a silly reason/excuse...) the characters I like weren't going to get together. I know, stupid sissy. Anyway, I decided to start on "The Protector of the Small quartet" and I'm already on the 3rd book... I KNOW the main character isn't going to be together with her man of the moment (she's not a slut! she just has many crushes, not that there's something wrong with that.), well that's okay. The one I like for her is her best friend and she only had a fleeting crush... at least she hasn't admitted her feelings. So anyway, what I don't like about this quartet is that she doesn't end up with ANYBODY.

I know I sound like a whinny pig who only cares about the heroine's romance, but I guess I just read too much romance books. Man, I sound sad. Poor bookworm. boo-hoo and blah blah blah. Tamora Pierce is all about feminism so shoo Harry Potter. I guess that the message of her books is "I don't need a man to make me happy." Go go go!

But please! Spare her heroines the heartache! I'm guessing none of my classmates would want to read this because of it's "corniness" [[I'm of the minority who actually reads fantasy books]] and lack of romance. Speaking of romance, I need to wrap my book. Estelle's going to borrow it.

School starts tomorrow.

My supposed-to-be New Year post turned out to be a ramble on romance. How sad.

five minutes to midnight

Well, technically it's not. But you get my point. It's the big 2oo9.

It's seems so fast. The next thing I know, it'll be the end of the Junior Year. Hello last summer as a HS student. Then 4th year and off to college.

Speaking of Colleges, my Tita lent me a book entitled "Do What You Are", a self-help book that's supposed to match your career with your personality. According to the Myers Brigg Test, I am a INFJ - Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling and Judging. And guess what, it depicted me well. So well that my career choices are what I was thinking of anyway (so no help there.) I'm destined to be a Librarian, Teacher, Nun, Novelist, Playwright, Social worker etc. I mean, how coincidental is that? It's a very well written guide and helpful too, in a way. The coincidences (or probably inevitables) are shocking though. Remind me never to underestimate psychology ever again.

Oh, and another thing I found out after reading this book is that I am: "a catalyst for positive change" and is part of the minority (based on population.) Approximately 1 % of America actually...

Happy New Year. I need to write a list.

BTW, I love the Chipmunk version of Booty Music. ♥ -linkie

The irony and summary

It's been a while...

About a month and more. My last post was just after sembreak... ta-da! It's already half of the Christmas break. Well, I've been busy. Yes, really busy. If not, I've been too much of a worrywart to get my thoughts straight or a procrastinator to write a single word. A lot has happened. A lot. Let's make a list of the memorable ones shall we... [[FYI This blog is turning out to be journal.]]

Let's start with something... academically related... something about my future after highschool... whatever that future might be. I'm talking about... The Ateneo Junior Summer Camp. [[Or something within those words.]] What's that? Not only does it boosts my confidence because I realized that I was told I am part of the top 5 of my batch [[top 4 to be exact]], but also, this campt thingy is a great, big, awesome, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for moi. To keep it short, here's the deal: Top 5 of selected schools in the country take an exam. Only the top 70 students can partake in the summer camp designed to train us for college life. And get this: once you get in, there is no need for an entrance exam for the said school. How frickin' awesome is that? :) But with the way things are going on for me right now... I have lots of doubts... school-related doubts. I know. What a nerd. Can I help it? [[Random: Chris Tiu!]]

Next on the list is the intramurals. Or the somehow intramurals. Aside from the fact that Charlotte is the muse of our batch [[that's my friend! woohoo~! :)]] and that it was the first time I got really excited for the intrams, to put it bluntly, it sucked. Carllyn and I and the others were not really able to participate in the activities because we became school representatives on some IT contest [[which sucked too.]] . And also not forgetting the fact that our batch... well, we were losers, literally. The only games we won were indoor games. So we're intellectually competent, nice. Well anyway, I really felt bad during the intrams, especially during the IT thing... I was sorry for my Ate C. She wanted to play so badly... I tried to sympathize since... well, I'm not an athletic person and so it does not have some big importance to me other than supporting my batchmates. This 'thing' fueled me to do my best during the IT contest... I wanted to win so that my Ate's efforts are not lost, or a waste to leave the intramurals. But it turned out very differently. I was depressed, and even as I recount it now, I still do.

Another thing to mention would probably the Kris Kringle. Our codenames were boys' names, my name was my brother's: Andre :) Anyway, funny that the secrecy and thrill was lost just a few days. My baby turned out to be my seatmate, Patitay. How she found out? She went to my house and saw the chocolates I gave her earlier that day. And on the same day did I found out who my mommy was: Jenina. Our conversation at the bathroom was hilarious! It turned out like this:

J: Annick, kilala mo na ba baby mo?
A: Oo. Ikaw?
J: Hindi eh. Kilala mo ba kung sino si Andre?
A: O.o -insert pause- :)) hahahahahahaha!

Our wishlists are cool too: we had so many similar wants! Revelations by Melissa dela Cruz [[speaking of which, I haven't bought one.]], a t-shirt from Artwork [[passed on to my 'family tree' during the revelations]], blank notebook from Fully Booked and a Little Miss Rosena t-shirt. :)

During the Christmas party, we had another flour fight. BTW, the theme was statement shirts and colored jeans. I had a trouble finding colored jeans [[I was supposed to wear white but it was banned! I bought a brown one.]] but I loved my statement shirt, though I would've prefered a custom one or from artwork or from David and Goliath: Save the earth! Eat animals! But I love my RED shirt! It said: Every child is an artist. :)

Oh, and for the first time ever, I've decided to attend the Misa de Gallo [[with my Dad and Tita Liz]] and guess what... I might be able to complete it! Tomorrow's the last day! :) A wish come true? I hope so! But which wish...

Other discoveries:

• Martinsays.com - I've found out Martin Johnson is a regular blogger, maybe even a techie, a humorous and insightful writer and a YouTube lurker! =))
• Tamora Pierce - I've just started reading her books [[e-books]] yesterday and I was hooked! Unfortunately, I read a spoiler about the ending of her quartet and you know happy endings are my pet peeve, especially if it concerns a couple... gah! I'm getting pissed again!
• Some epiphanies... mostly not so good.

thick

I've just finished a book I've recently borrowed from Estelle. It's entitled The True Meaning of Cleavage (by Mariah Fredericks), and trust me, it's not as liberated as the title speaks of. It's not even a romance story, but one about friendship. What true friends really are- companions despite everything else, kindred souls. Somehow, the story helped me figure things out, some things that just happened within this last week before the sembreak.

There was an ultimatum earlier today. I had to decide between 2 of my best friends: my sister-cousin and one of my FWENDZ. Both celebrated their birthday this October, the former just yesterday and the latter on Monday. Here's the dilemma: I promised my cousin that we'll watch HSM 3 tomorrow (even though I'd prefer to watch The Strangers) but then my friend suddenly told of her celebration tomorrow as well. Of course, I already had other plans on Friday before the other two, a movie marathon. But of course, I couldn't say no to my cousin, and I figured they'd understand why I can't come (yet again.) But then the celebration thing came up all of the sudden, and I didn't know what to do. I thought she said she didn't want to celebrate it the first place so...

It was hard deciding. But I guess, blood is thicker than water, right? I hate that quotation. I think it's stupid, to be blunt.

So how was this related to the book? What's the true meaning of Cleavage? It's the separation of the pair.

I was miserable for most of today, for this week (this very slow week) to be exact.

But there was another thing bubbling inside of me, aside from misery. My writing muse. Writing Gakuen Alice Fanfiction for 2 years... I almost forgot how that felt. I suffered from a Writer's block. That's when I started writing this blog. It's like forgetting to write fiction and focus on... reality. Epiphanies soon followed after. Then a bit of fear.

So what got me energized to write again? Lack of books to read, boredom, reminisces and the song from the movie Anastasia "At the Beginning." (I love that movie and that song.)

BTW, completely random, I'm listening a song from Ella Enchanted "Once Upon A Broken Heart" - something I discovered after watching some Howl's Moving Castle AMVs.

Well... sembreak. Here it goes.

Me Time

The week after exams was spent pouring over two things. Two very feminine interests that surprised the heck out of me. (Though the latter could be considered normal for me... in a way.) The week was spent watching the first season of Gossip Girl and reading novel, particularly the Bridgerton Series of Julia Quinn, a well-known Historical-Romance novelist. [[I think it's like the Pride-and-Prejudice era, but I'm not sure.]]

How was this possible? Let me see...

I've heard about Gossip Girl in school. Well, I've heard about it before but it was the book, not the uh... show. Anyway, out of curiosity and intrigue, I wanted to read those novels. According to some of my friends, the book is uh... it contains more 'bitchiness' compared to the show. So I chose to watch it first. I desperately searched for some sites, got bored and impatient waiting, opened up MP3 Rocket and started downloading. What do you know. There are 5 episodes of that show on my iPod. [[I'd put the whole series but there won't be any memory left.]] And surprisingly, I don't mind the bitchiness at all. What I don't like is the 'connections' of the characters... specifically, their parents' past.

Next are the e-books. I've heard of Julia Quinn when SnowMirage one of my most favorite GA Fanfiction writers, quoted a line from her book "The Duke & I" It went like this: "To say that men are bull-headed would be insulting to the bull." Nice isn't it? :) The first hisorical-romance novel I've read is (not surprisinly) by Meg Cabot. I liked it, but I've always loved Cabot's novels. Honestly, I think it was interesting to see a glimpse of the past- when women were fragile and men, chivalrous. When I first read Julia Quinn's Bridgerton series, I immediately thought it was great. It's more mature than Cabot's and the plot's more developed. I think there are 8 books in the Bridgerton series and I'm downloading the 5th book as I write. :) I think I'm ready to give Pride and Prejudice another chance. [[The movie though... maybe later.]]

The weird thing is how both uh... interests have something in common, aside from the romance that is. In them are both two female enigmas- both keen on gossip and scandals. On the former there is, of course, Gossip Girl who fills in the Upper East insiders the latest on the scandalous lives of Manhattan's Elite. :) At the books, there is Lady Whistledown, the mysterious and blunt gossip columnist of the ton. Aside from their mysterious identity, another similiraty is their wit in delivering news. One of the things I like most: wit. :)

So what's with my sudden and LONG post? I'm supposed to be climbing up a waterfall by now. Yep. It's our outbound.

I'm not a physically fit person, so wasn't really excited about this trip. Because the awful date (we recently discussed in our Health class about a woman's ovulation period...) and my female intution [[I told my friends I'll HAVE my period on that day. When it came true, I surprised myself as well.]] I didn't go. Although yesterday my bag and snacks (oh my god, my snacks!) were ready, I was ready for some wounds and bruises due to my clumsiness, I slept okay considering I had to wake up at 3:30 AM and stuff. I stayed at home. Doing nothing but... the interests above. But I feel guilty that I've disappointed my friends... I've disappointed myself as well. But hey, it was my first day and I had NO ALL-NIGHT NAPKIN and NO MIDOL. How was I to survive? In compensation, I gave them my Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches. But not my Cheetos though.

There's a good thing that happened earlier though. When I was drinking cold Nescafe at 4:00 AM, I opened the TV and switched to MTV (the only channel I watch on our... unsatisfying cable) and what do you know. End of some random music video then came... THUNDER BY BOYSLIKEGIRLS. I was literally swooning. It may just be a random coincidence or God's gift, but Martin Johnson made it all better. Again, surprised the heck out of me. I couldn't keep off the smile on my face even as I said goodbye to my friends. But was I wrong to do that? Did I make the wrong decision? I hope nobody's angry... I shouldn't think highly of myself though.

But still, all these coincidences is so... amazing. Like in a novel... Oops. It's starting again...

Downside of things: Periodical Exam Results. I don't even want to think about it or write it here.

LATE.

It's been a MONTH.

whoa. wow. what?

geh. corny alliterations.

PAST POP UPS:

• Boys Like Girls concert is ♥ [[oops. I mentioned that already.]]
• I'm FIFTEEN. surprise! surprise! Fortunatelty (or not), I feel the same. On a stand still...
• My Birthday blowout turned out to be a... photo shoot. Not that I mind. :)
• Hmm... what else? Oh yeah! Manga addiction! Credits to my 'servant' (as she insists, I swear! I don't treat my friends as slaves! Often vice versa... joke =P) Mariel. I recommend Koukou Debut, AAA, You're my Girlfriend and more! Hahaha! On a roll. =)
• Fictionpress, still a source of literature for my romance-craving mind.
• Umm... Third Year Pressure?

I'd elaborate the last part. Third Year Pressure = stress and insanity = eyebags galore and pimples. (eww. I know.) And to think I've been PROCRASTINATING all along! I only felt these kind of stress from school work during the last quarter as a Sophie and Freshman. They didn't exagerate when they said 3rd year is the most hectic period in Highschool. Oh and that reminds me...

• Career Assesment Survey and Exam [[The first part I finished since it's short and frankly, quite retarded. The last part squeezed the juices out of my brain.]]
• Intrigued by lives of young disney celebs...

Did you know?

The Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez clash? Yep. Old news. But I heard they made up recently during the former's birthday party at Disney land. The place closed down! wow. (notice the period before) Oh wait wait wait. I got mixed up. The two reconciled during the Teen Choice awards. But speaking of the 2 incidents... David Archuleta! He, together with David Cook, announced the best female artist - Miley Cyrus. And she snobbed them. jerk. So anyway, Archie was also at Miley's party... I don't know how or why, but he is. Speaking of Miley, she's got a new boyfriend (finally! let go of Nick Jonas!), Justin Gaston (underwear model. okay...) AND I just found out that HE was in Taylor Swift's new music video (which I ADORE. saw it on Meg Cabot's website (: ) LOVE STORY. And recently, that Taylor Swift and Joe Jonas just broke up. "He broke her heart." I read somewhere. I can confirm this after reading something on Taylor's MySpace. Poor, beautiful girl. :( He broke up with her on the PHONE! My respect for Joe Jonas went (partially) down the drain. Speaking of which...

• I'm addicted to Taylor Swift! Eversince Love Story, I've been enamoured by her. But of course, in a platonic, fan-girlish way. I'm not a groupie afterall! And most specially not towards the same gender!

See how intrigued I am? Half my post about Disney celebs. Which is surprising since I was never a gossip girl anyway.

What is earth’s medicine?

According to the trusty Merriam-Webster dictionary, Global Warming is an increase in the earth's atmospheric and oceanic temperatures widely predicted to occur due to an increase in the greenhouse effect resulting especially from pollution. To put it simply, because of pollution, there is an increase in the earth’s temperature- causing a lot of environmental problems. And if we don’t start taking care of mother earth now, things would come to an end, especially for the future generations.

The advances in technology today affect most of our environment. Burning of fossil fuels, using products with CFCs, carbon dioxide from power plants, modes of transportation and buildings, deforestation are just some of the causes on the thinning of the ozone layer. But sad to say, not everyone gives attention to this growing problem. As long as they’re comfortable now- why worry about the future? Well, it’s everyone’s duty to take care of the earth and make sure it stays ‘livable’ for the future generations. In the past, people lived more than about a hundred years! But now, some barely even reach sixty, let alone a hundred. Good thing nowadays, medicines have greatly improved. But with the rise of medical researches, new diseases are yet to be discovered. But what about our planet? What is earth’s medicine?

Here’s an interesting (and a bit insulting in my opinion) article I found online: 10 Surprising Results of Global Warming. Basically, it tells us about the effects of global warming- things that even offhand people bother to think about. With it’s catchy headings, I hope after reading this article, a bit or concern for our environment would surface.

It’s because of the neglect of us humans that the world is suffering, affecting the animals and plants as well. It’s ironic to say that the advances in science, giving comfort in our life, have caused these problems with the environment. It’s a pity. We take and take but don’t give back. Soon, there’ll be nothing to take, and nothing to repay.

It's time to stop being a parasite to our planet. We're human beings. We're the stewards of God's creations. Earlier today, I tried my luck on entering Screeve. I was to write a story on how to 'Change the world, one step at a time.' [[or something like that. I forgot the exact words.]] I guess this is my first step.

Over there.

Extra extra! Read all about it! First day of school highs and lows!

III-St. Monica. Adviser: Ms. Jacquelin Asis [[first year English teacher.]]

A list would be simpler.

• MOST of my fwendz are at St. Monica's
• We're trying to make it work. But the schedule is a bugger. The lunch schedule to be precise. If it won't change. Mariel and I will not have lunch with the others FOR THE WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR. [[this sucks the most]]
• Auditor [[for 3 years already]]
• Classmates are ok. Seating arrangement? Will take a while to get used to.
• Managed to distribute chocolates and other 'pasalubongs' =)
• Received a heart warming letter from Elmira [[I MISS HER SO BAD!!!]] which I gloated to my family. [[dunno why. But it made Jom cry. --That rhymes.]]
• Received a gift from Kiwi! Aww! It's an Alice and Wonderland notebook and pencil case! It's so kawaii~! [[also gloated]] Thanks Kiwi!
• Made plans for a sudden visit to my house: do Yoga from Estelle.
• Sudden Chemistry homework. Yoga plans changed into a group study with [[surprisingly]] Jom's help.
• Ate pizza and chocolates and drank coke.
• The study group thingy made it all okay.
• I MISS MY FWENDZ SO BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!
• Realized Kuya Dan's got it worse. Compared to his, chemistry homework is a peachy subject.
• All in all. It was a very DIFFERENT first day of school. It's fine... for now.

I hope I'll survive the year.

While It Lasts

I'm a Fanpire. [[not a Fangirl anymore.]]

What am I devouring nowadays?

♠ The addiction is genetic.

Wow. My mom's American Idol fever rubbed on me. I suddenly find myself squealing like a pig, browsing the net for more scoop on Archie and sulking [[a bit]] that Cook won. Even AI plagued my iPod! And my 'used-to-be-Panda-filled' Friendster Mediabox.

Lovely linkies: -ramble- -ramble- -rawr- -meow?-

♠ The Host.

I've got a wonderful icon in my 'About Me' on Friendster. Fits everything perfectly. =)

Lookie look:

I finished the book all in a day because I was so fired up and high. It was worth the eyebags and my savings. Haha!

I loved The Host more than the Twilight Saga because: a.) I like the main character. So much.[[unlike Bella.]] b.) I support the love triangle... or square. [[Even if Bella is... Bella. I still want her together with Edward.]] c.) The story is so realistic for a sci-fi book. [[I used to have a penchant for aliens in the past. Probably because I'm weird... still am.]]

And lastly because unlike perfect Edward, [[or other vampires and fictional guys I'm fond of who are close to perfect.]] Wanda's Ian is so sweet in a completely NORMAL human way. =) Hence, the icon above.

I think I even cried a bit. That's how sweet Wanda and Ian were. Or how cruel Jared is.

I'd probably stay human with Ian, Vampire with Edward =)
[[I lost it.]]

Now, let's move on to what I am dreading... partially.

The start of Junior Year.

Reasons why I want to go back:
1. My FWENDZ!
2. Back to the norm for 10 months!
3. Eeevee promised to lend me her Like Minds DVD
4. The laughfest shall begin.

Why not:
1. The sectioning. I really really really want to be with my FWENDZ!
2. Schoolwork and pressure. [[what else?]]
3. No more procrastinating. [[or else.]]
4. I'm a JUNIOR now. [[thousands of reasons behind that.]]

cracked, now sunny-side-up

WAH!!!! It's vacation!!!!
And I can't believe I haven't written here before hand...
Well, before I lose myself into flaunting some stuff, let me tell you all about saying good-bye to Clare.
First of all, it wasn't as dramatic as I expected it to be.
Secondly, I realized I'll miss them more than I thought I would miss them.
Confused? So am I.
But one thing's for sure

I love TLC.

This year was so so so different from last year and my other school days at CSR... it stood out. And that's how I'm gonna remember it.

Well, now that it's all cleared, I'll babble about the sleepover @ Mariel's house.
It is my first sleepover yet. It was so fun! [It had to be considering there were eight of us!] We watched tons of movies, [we finally get to use Mariel's Portable DVD player, something she's been desperate to get] ate lots of snacks, laughed out loud, talked and talked and talked, went jogging [4 AM!], harassed her puppies [ahaha! poor Tatay!], soundtrip and had a bit of a drama time... we had to say good-bye to Elmira...

But all in all, it was fun. So I guess you could say that the sleepover is the start of summer...

The way it rolls... //Late Post//

Imagine typing using only one hand… your left hand. What’s with the devil’s right hand? Well, the ring finger got hit by a SOFTball. Oh yes. It was soft as a cushion… not. It HURTS! I told you I suck at PE. Well actually, Mariel calls it beginner’s luck, I call it equivalent exchange. How? We had a practical test [my partner is Ana May] and I got 2 out of 3. –Insert Fireworks here- Really. I’d be glad if I just even caught one ball. So yeah. A nice score in PE but what’s the exchange? A throbbing ring finger [given the circumstances, I would’ve preferred the middle finger… just for kicks], a displeasing score in Biology quiz [not a failing grade but still…] and an afternoon of ice bags. Yahoo.

And shoot. Bad timing. Tomorrow is the frog dissection in Biology. Oh Kami help me! Here I am researching some info on the Anatomy of a Frog and I can’t even look at the freaking pictures… what will happen tomorrow will a real and up-close frog!?!? And I’m supposed to bring the camera!!!

Stupid kismet.

Remember the frog prince? Well, the princess got guts to kiss or maybe just to even touch the animal! It’s times like these that you’d wish you were born a sadist than an empathetic human.

So, equivalent exchange?

I just realized this isn’t alchemy.

So anyway, I have a vision of what will happen tomorrow. The frog’s not going to croak. I am.

Wanna bet?

Fireworks going “bang”

THE PLAY! THE PLAY! THE PLAY!
ugh. I just realized... I'd rather play a part in the play than be the scriptwriter... okay, if the play's in English, I'd gladly do the script... but no, it's in Filipino. Not that I hate Filipino or anything... I'm just not good at writing in Filipino [poor vocab.] I know. I'm ashamed to admit it. But it's true.

Anywayz, like last year, the play is like the 'start' in the countdown to summer... or the end of the school year. wah... I want the school year to end already... but I don't want to leave my classmates... Honestly, SMG is more united than TLC. But still, have some sentiment dude! There were lots of good times this year...

Last summer, I admit I didn't get homesick at all when we spent the summer at Dubai. But listening to my friends' plans to meet up in the summer [especially Mariel! she's so hyper!]... I feel a bit jealous. Of course they asked me to stay this summer but... I can't. A part of me wants to stay, a part of me... well, doesn't. And they're for 2 different reasons... well, not really that different now that I think about it... and it's also kinda... twisted in a way.

Twisted. That's me. I like twisted stuff... hahaha! Like the movie "The Prestige"- I just watched it last Sunday, it's the movie Foster recommended. And about recommendation, I told Estelle that The Mediator Series by Meg Cabot is... so great! It ties with Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Series in my opinion.

Edward Cullen VS Jesse de Silva

So hard to choose from...

Speaking of Twilight, bluntly speaking my thoughts, I don't fancy the cast that much... especially now that I saw the pictures... these pictures...

Dilated Eyes... ~Linkie!

I think Emmett is OKAY... maybe even Carlisle and Jasper... but the rest is just... ugh. Edward looks OLD.

Don't kill me for speaking [or writing] my mind.