The irony and summary

It's been a while...

About a month and more. My last post was just after sembreak... ta-da! It's already half of the Christmas break. Well, I've been busy. Yes, really busy. If not, I've been too much of a worrywart to get my thoughts straight or a procrastinator to write a single word. A lot has happened. A lot. Let's make a list of the memorable ones shall we... [[FYI This blog is turning out to be journal.]]

Let's start with something... academically related... something about my future after highschool... whatever that future might be. I'm talking about... The Ateneo Junior Summer Camp. [[Or something within those words.]] What's that? Not only does it boosts my confidence because I realized that I was told I am part of the top 5 of my batch [[top 4 to be exact]], but also, this campt thingy is a great, big, awesome, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for moi. To keep it short, here's the deal: Top 5 of selected schools in the country take an exam. Only the top 70 students can partake in the summer camp designed to train us for college life. And get this: once you get in, there is no need for an entrance exam for the said school. How frickin' awesome is that? :) But with the way things are going on for me right now... I have lots of doubts... school-related doubts. I know. What a nerd. Can I help it? [[Random: Chris Tiu!]]

Next on the list is the intramurals. Or the somehow intramurals. Aside from the fact that Charlotte is the muse of our batch [[that's my friend! woohoo~! :)]] and that it was the first time I got really excited for the intrams, to put it bluntly, it sucked. Carllyn and I and the others were not really able to participate in the activities because we became school representatives on some IT contest [[which sucked too.]] . And also not forgetting the fact that our batch... well, we were losers, literally. The only games we won were indoor games. So we're intellectually competent, nice. Well anyway, I really felt bad during the intrams, especially during the IT thing... I was sorry for my Ate C. She wanted to play so badly... I tried to sympathize since... well, I'm not an athletic person and so it does not have some big importance to me other than supporting my batchmates. This 'thing' fueled me to do my best during the IT contest... I wanted to win so that my Ate's efforts are not lost, or a waste to leave the intramurals. But it turned out very differently. I was depressed, and even as I recount it now, I still do.

Another thing to mention would probably the Kris Kringle. Our codenames were boys' names, my name was my brother's: Andre :) Anyway, funny that the secrecy and thrill was lost just a few days. My baby turned out to be my seatmate, Patitay. How she found out? She went to my house and saw the chocolates I gave her earlier that day. And on the same day did I found out who my mommy was: Jenina. Our conversation at the bathroom was hilarious! It turned out like this:

J: Annick, kilala mo na ba baby mo?
A: Oo. Ikaw?
J: Hindi eh. Kilala mo ba kung sino si Andre?
A: O.o -insert pause- :)) hahahahahahaha!

Our wishlists are cool too: we had so many similar wants! Revelations by Melissa dela Cruz [[speaking of which, I haven't bought one.]], a t-shirt from Artwork [[passed on to my 'family tree' during the revelations]], blank notebook from Fully Booked and a Little Miss Rosena t-shirt. :)

During the Christmas party, we had another flour fight. BTW, the theme was statement shirts and colored jeans. I had a trouble finding colored jeans [[I was supposed to wear white but it was banned! I bought a brown one.]] but I loved my statement shirt, though I would've prefered a custom one or from artwork or from David and Goliath: Save the earth! Eat animals! But I love my RED shirt! It said: Every child is an artist. :)

Oh, and for the first time ever, I've decided to attend the Misa de Gallo [[with my Dad and Tita Liz]] and guess what... I might be able to complete it! Tomorrow's the last day! :) A wish come true? I hope so! But which wish...

Other discoveries:

• Martinsays.com - I've found out Martin Johnson is a regular blogger, maybe even a techie, a humorous and insightful writer and a YouTube lurker! =))
• Tamora Pierce - I've just started reading her books [[e-books]] yesterday and I was hooked! Unfortunately, I read a spoiler about the ending of her quartet and you know happy endings are my pet peeve, especially if it concerns a couple... gah! I'm getting pissed again!
• Some epiphanies... mostly not so good.

... running circles in my head.

RAMBLE!

I'm supposed to be either a.) sleeping or b.) studying for AP. But after reviewing non-stop (with the occasional distractions of my cousins ♥) for chemistry, I feel really, really tired. Why not sleep? I don't know. I guess I really am a nocturnal person. Hahaha. Vampires. Or, like the saying goes, "Old habits die hard" I'm just procrastinating.

When is Christmas Break? Today is the 1st day after the sembreak. Today was also the day my classmates saw my new haircut. No comment on that. So anyway, I felt really bad! And not because of the haircut, but because I haven't been productive during the rest days! Well, it is a rest day afterall, but that's not an excuse! I'm a THIRD YEAR student! I can't slack off now! [[Though I really am.]] Earlier, I had a conversation with Mariel. From how it went to interpreting poems about housewives to campus tours then college courses, I dunno. But anyway, it's already the third quarter and I still don't know which course to take! All I'm sure is that it's not medicine. Anyway, Mariel told me it would be best if I got one English/Computer related since they are my strong points. I admit, journalism is pretty tempting. But I want to have a stable job when I graduate... I'm the eldest after all! And I have 2 siblings! One will start schooling just after I graduate! So what I need is a course related to my strong points and get a decent and stable job afterwards. Hmmm.... what about becoming a teacher? Hell no. What a sick joke.

-end ramble-

I ♥ my CUZINs!
Message: Hang in there Jong! [[can't post this...]]

Pointless

It's NaNoWriMo! :)

But I'm not joining. It'll be hard to balance my schoolwork... especially now that I'm a Junior AND I'm trying to make-up for the last quarter. *Sigh* I wish I joined last year. Problem is, I was having a Writer's block [[aww. I'm a writer! =))]] Writers from FictionPress are hooked on NaNoWriMo, even published authors like Meg Cabot! Wow! Maybe next year I can...

Well, I anyway, I want to ramble and roar about some stuff today. Now that I think about it, the topic is probably my pet peeve: story endings. You see, I was browsing through the National Bookstore Website searching if Revelations by Melissa dela Cruz is already available. That was when I stumbled upon another book, Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke. I love the Inkheart series! The genre is fantasy, another favorite aside from romance. Anyway, the mentioned is actually the final book of the Trilogy. I was so excited! I've read the 2 books last year, borrowed from the library. I was actually planning on buying all 3 books. But after reading the reviews of those who have finished reading it (finding some spoilers as well), I don't think I'll buy it, let alone read it anymore. Here's the thing: Farid and Meggie won't get together. But I love that pairing! A girl from the real world and a boy from a different world, from inside a book! Aside from the obvious, how can it not work out?!?! Although the reviews say it has a great ending, I still couldn't force myself to read it. And here's the thing: I don't force myself to read! Except textbooks of course.

I read because I want to travel, explore new things, play with emotions. I read becuase I want to escape. Blame it on Disney, but I'm a sucker for happy endings. I read a story from Fictionpress entitled, Jonnie the Girl, I loved it! That is until the unexpected and tragic twist... then realizing that it was a true to life story! I got so depressed, I cried that night and was all gloomy the next day. See this is what I hate. I'm not naive to not realize that life can be a bitch, so this is where books come in, where there are happy endings, goodness and love conquers all, blah blah blah. It may seem like a childish fantasy, but it's like my drug you see.

So why bother with tragic endings? Fiction is supposed to be my escape. It's pointless to read drama if it goes on until the end. I admit, I like heartaching stories, thinking that the ending will be sweeter through it all. But if the story is left as is... NO!

And speaking of Revelations, I read a review that it's ending is... disappointing. Well, that's okay. Because I know there is still 6 more books out of 9 to make it all better.

So there. RAWR.

It's not dark. You're just BLIND.

Keep telling yourself "Reality is better than fiction." I've finished reading "Austenland" by Shannon Hale [[I love the book!!]] and in one of the reviews, it mentions the earlier statement. I irony? It's also a novel. Like blind leading the blind. The story is about a young woman, very single because she keeps comparing every guy to Mr. Darcy, her obsession. Though I'm not a fan of Pride and Prejudice [[I'm TRYING to read the book and see what the fuss is all about...]], I understand that Boys in Books are so much Better. It's a great story. About letting go, moving on and taking a stand. [[Though it's not as dramatic as I put out.]]

It was worth my savings. :) But I wasn't surprised, Shannon Hale is one of my most favorite authors.

But after a bad haircut, I find reality very... annoying. It's like wanting to enter a dream and never wake-up or go through a mirror to another world or something... what a novel idea. But then again, after a few days of trying to get over... stuff. I might reconsider.

Epiphany: Aside from being myopic, I'm blind. [[I thought these things only happen in book but...]] And I'm so stubborn I frustrate myself as well.

Other News:

• HSM3 is my favorite out of the 3 movies.
• Got scolded that day...
• Ear Piercing hurts even if you just look at it.
• I'm broke.
• I don't watch Filipino Movies just because.
• I have a long Christmas list.
• After eons, I finally updated my FS.
• Natsume and Mikan is still ♥
• I'm still a GA fangirl.

As proof, here are some GA AMVs I adore :) [[It's in my iPod]]

• I Think I Love You
• I'll Be

thick

I've just finished a book I've recently borrowed from Estelle. It's entitled The True Meaning of Cleavage (by Mariah Fredericks), and trust me, it's not as liberated as the title speaks of. It's not even a romance story, but one about friendship. What true friends really are- companions despite everything else, kindred souls. Somehow, the story helped me figure things out, some things that just happened within this last week before the sembreak.

There was an ultimatum earlier today. I had to decide between 2 of my best friends: my sister-cousin and one of my FWENDZ. Both celebrated their birthday this October, the former just yesterday and the latter on Monday. Here's the dilemma: I promised my cousin that we'll watch HSM 3 tomorrow (even though I'd prefer to watch The Strangers) but then my friend suddenly told of her celebration tomorrow as well. Of course, I already had other plans on Friday before the other two, a movie marathon. But of course, I couldn't say no to my cousin, and I figured they'd understand why I can't come (yet again.) But then the celebration thing came up all of the sudden, and I didn't know what to do. I thought she said she didn't want to celebrate it the first place so...

It was hard deciding. But I guess, blood is thicker than water, right? I hate that quotation. I think it's stupid, to be blunt.

So how was this related to the book? What's the true meaning of Cleavage? It's the separation of the pair.

I was miserable for most of today, for this week (this very slow week) to be exact.

But there was another thing bubbling inside of me, aside from misery. My writing muse. Writing Gakuen Alice Fanfiction for 2 years... I almost forgot how that felt. I suffered from a Writer's block. That's when I started writing this blog. It's like forgetting to write fiction and focus on... reality. Epiphanies soon followed after. Then a bit of fear.

So what got me energized to write again? Lack of books to read, boredom, reminisces and the song from the movie Anastasia "At the Beginning." (I love that movie and that song.)

BTW, completely random, I'm listening a song from Ella Enchanted "Once Upon A Broken Heart" - something I discovered after watching some Howl's Moving Castle AMVs.

Well... sembreak. Here it goes.