It's not dark. You're just BLIND.

Keep telling yourself "Reality is better than fiction." I've finished reading "Austenland" by Shannon Hale [[I love the book!!]] and in one of the reviews, it mentions the earlier statement. I irony? It's also a novel. Like blind leading the blind. The story is about a young woman, very single because she keeps comparing every guy to Mr. Darcy, her obsession. Though I'm not a fan of Pride and Prejudice [[I'm TRYING to read the book and see what the fuss is all about...]], I understand that Boys in Books are so much Better. It's a great story. About letting go, moving on and taking a stand. [[Though it's not as dramatic as I put out.]]

It was worth my savings. :) But I wasn't surprised, Shannon Hale is one of my most favorite authors.

But after a bad haircut, I find reality very... annoying. It's like wanting to enter a dream and never wake-up or go through a mirror to another world or something... what a novel idea. But then again, after a few days of trying to get over... stuff. I might reconsider.

Epiphany: Aside from being myopic, I'm blind. [[I thought these things only happen in book but...]] And I'm so stubborn I frustrate myself as well.

Other News:

• HSM3 is my favorite out of the 3 movies.
• Got scolded that day...
• Ear Piercing hurts even if you just look at it.
• I'm broke.
• I don't watch Filipino Movies just because.
• I have a long Christmas list.
• After eons, I finally updated my FS.
• Natsume and Mikan is still ♥
• I'm still a GA fangirl.

As proof, here are some GA AMVs I adore :) [[It's in my iPod]]

• I Think I Love You
• I'll Be

thick

I've just finished a book I've recently borrowed from Estelle. It's entitled The True Meaning of Cleavage (by Mariah Fredericks), and trust me, it's not as liberated as the title speaks of. It's not even a romance story, but one about friendship. What true friends really are- companions despite everything else, kindred souls. Somehow, the story helped me figure things out, some things that just happened within this last week before the sembreak.

There was an ultimatum earlier today. I had to decide between 2 of my best friends: my sister-cousin and one of my FWENDZ. Both celebrated their birthday this October, the former just yesterday and the latter on Monday. Here's the dilemma: I promised my cousin that we'll watch HSM 3 tomorrow (even though I'd prefer to watch The Strangers) but then my friend suddenly told of her celebration tomorrow as well. Of course, I already had other plans on Friday before the other two, a movie marathon. But of course, I couldn't say no to my cousin, and I figured they'd understand why I can't come (yet again.) But then the celebration thing came up all of the sudden, and I didn't know what to do. I thought she said she didn't want to celebrate it the first place so...

It was hard deciding. But I guess, blood is thicker than water, right? I hate that quotation. I think it's stupid, to be blunt.

So how was this related to the book? What's the true meaning of Cleavage? It's the separation of the pair.

I was miserable for most of today, for this week (this very slow week) to be exact.

But there was another thing bubbling inside of me, aside from misery. My writing muse. Writing Gakuen Alice Fanfiction for 2 years... I almost forgot how that felt. I suffered from a Writer's block. That's when I started writing this blog. It's like forgetting to write fiction and focus on... reality. Epiphanies soon followed after. Then a bit of fear.

So what got me energized to write again? Lack of books to read, boredom, reminisces and the song from the movie Anastasia "At the Beginning." (I love that movie and that song.)

BTW, completely random, I'm listening a song from Ella Enchanted "Once Upon A Broken Heart" - something I discovered after watching some Howl's Moving Castle AMVs.

Well... sembreak. Here it goes.

Me Time

The week after exams was spent pouring over two things. Two very feminine interests that surprised the heck out of me. (Though the latter could be considered normal for me... in a way.) The week was spent watching the first season of Gossip Girl and reading novel, particularly the Bridgerton Series of Julia Quinn, a well-known Historical-Romance novelist. [[I think it's like the Pride-and-Prejudice era, but I'm not sure.]]

How was this possible? Let me see...

I've heard about Gossip Girl in school. Well, I've heard about it before but it was the book, not the uh... show. Anyway, out of curiosity and intrigue, I wanted to read those novels. According to some of my friends, the book is uh... it contains more 'bitchiness' compared to the show. So I chose to watch it first. I desperately searched for some sites, got bored and impatient waiting, opened up MP3 Rocket and started downloading. What do you know. There are 5 episodes of that show on my iPod. [[I'd put the whole series but there won't be any memory left.]] And surprisingly, I don't mind the bitchiness at all. What I don't like is the 'connections' of the characters... specifically, their parents' past.

Next are the e-books. I've heard of Julia Quinn when SnowMirage one of my most favorite GA Fanfiction writers, quoted a line from her book "The Duke & I" It went like this: "To say that men are bull-headed would be insulting to the bull." Nice isn't it? :) The first hisorical-romance novel I've read is (not surprisinly) by Meg Cabot. I liked it, but I've always loved Cabot's novels. Honestly, I think it was interesting to see a glimpse of the past- when women were fragile and men, chivalrous. When I first read Julia Quinn's Bridgerton series, I immediately thought it was great. It's more mature than Cabot's and the plot's more developed. I think there are 8 books in the Bridgerton series and I'm downloading the 5th book as I write. :) I think I'm ready to give Pride and Prejudice another chance. [[The movie though... maybe later.]]

The weird thing is how both uh... interests have something in common, aside from the romance that is. In them are both two female enigmas- both keen on gossip and scandals. On the former there is, of course, Gossip Girl who fills in the Upper East insiders the latest on the scandalous lives of Manhattan's Elite. :) At the books, there is Lady Whistledown, the mysterious and blunt gossip columnist of the ton. Aside from their mysterious identity, another similiraty is their wit in delivering news. One of the things I like most: wit. :)

So what's with my sudden and LONG post? I'm supposed to be climbing up a waterfall by now. Yep. It's our outbound.

I'm not a physically fit person, so wasn't really excited about this trip. Because the awful date (we recently discussed in our Health class about a woman's ovulation period...) and my female intution [[I told my friends I'll HAVE my period on that day. When it came true, I surprised myself as well.]] I didn't go. Although yesterday my bag and snacks (oh my god, my snacks!) were ready, I was ready for some wounds and bruises due to my clumsiness, I slept okay considering I had to wake up at 3:30 AM and stuff. I stayed at home. Doing nothing but... the interests above. But I feel guilty that I've disappointed my friends... I've disappointed myself as well. But hey, it was my first day and I had NO ALL-NIGHT NAPKIN and NO MIDOL. How was I to survive? In compensation, I gave them my Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches. But not my Cheetos though.

There's a good thing that happened earlier though. When I was drinking cold Nescafe at 4:00 AM, I opened the TV and switched to MTV (the only channel I watch on our... unsatisfying cable) and what do you know. End of some random music video then came... THUNDER BY BOYSLIKEGIRLS. I was literally swooning. It may just be a random coincidence or God's gift, but Martin Johnson made it all better. Again, surprised the heck out of me. I couldn't keep off the smile on my face even as I said goodbye to my friends. But was I wrong to do that? Did I make the wrong decision? I hope nobody's angry... I shouldn't think highly of myself though.

But still, all these coincidences is so... amazing. Like in a novel... Oops. It's starting again...

Downside of things: Periodical Exam Results. I don't even want to think about it or write it here.

LATE.

It's been a MONTH.

whoa. wow. what?

geh. corny alliterations.

PAST POP UPS:

• Boys Like Girls concert is ♥ [[oops. I mentioned that already.]]
• I'm FIFTEEN. surprise! surprise! Fortunatelty (or not), I feel the same. On a stand still...
• My Birthday blowout turned out to be a... photo shoot. Not that I mind. :)
• Hmm... what else? Oh yeah! Manga addiction! Credits to my 'servant' (as she insists, I swear! I don't treat my friends as slaves! Often vice versa... joke =P) Mariel. I recommend Koukou Debut, AAA, You're my Girlfriend and more! Hahaha! On a roll. =)
• Fictionpress, still a source of literature for my romance-craving mind.
• Umm... Third Year Pressure?

I'd elaborate the last part. Third Year Pressure = stress and insanity = eyebags galore and pimples. (eww. I know.) And to think I've been PROCRASTINATING all along! I only felt these kind of stress from school work during the last quarter as a Sophie and Freshman. They didn't exagerate when they said 3rd year is the most hectic period in Highschool. Oh and that reminds me...

• Career Assesment Survey and Exam [[The first part I finished since it's short and frankly, quite retarded. The last part squeezed the juices out of my brain.]]
• Intrigued by lives of young disney celebs...

Did you know?

The Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez clash? Yep. Old news. But I heard they made up recently during the former's birthday party at Disney land. The place closed down! wow. (notice the period before) Oh wait wait wait. I got mixed up. The two reconciled during the Teen Choice awards. But speaking of the 2 incidents... David Archuleta! He, together with David Cook, announced the best female artist - Miley Cyrus. And she snobbed them. jerk. So anyway, Archie was also at Miley's party... I don't know how or why, but he is. Speaking of Miley, she's got a new boyfriend (finally! let go of Nick Jonas!), Justin Gaston (underwear model. okay...) AND I just found out that HE was in Taylor Swift's new music video (which I ADORE. saw it on Meg Cabot's website (: ) LOVE STORY. And recently, that Taylor Swift and Joe Jonas just broke up. "He broke her heart." I read somewhere. I can confirm this after reading something on Taylor's MySpace. Poor, beautiful girl. :( He broke up with her on the PHONE! My respect for Joe Jonas went (partially) down the drain. Speaking of which...

• I'm addicted to Taylor Swift! Eversince Love Story, I've been enamoured by her. But of course, in a platonic, fan-girlish way. I'm not a groupie afterall! And most specially not towards the same gender!

See how intrigued I am? Half my post about Disney celebs. Which is surprising since I was never a gossip girl anyway.

Heels Over Head for BoysLikeGirls - 26

It was one heck of a day. Full of contemplation and longing as we stood in line. Annoyance and gloom as we heard of the commotion. Yearning and hopefulness when we realized we were an inch close to what we wanted. What an emotional roller coaster.


Not to mention how much our feet hurt and our voices cracked from screaming, our ears popped and sweat trickled down as we jumped up and down.


But I guess it was all worth it.


As Carllyn and I were desperately trying to figure out what to do, where to go and how to cope up with our blues, we shared a certain thought: What's the difference between expectations and optimism? We're often told not to expect for we might not get what we want in the end. But we're also told to think positive and not to lose hope. Up until now I'm confused.


As we waited in line (or lines since we almost about circled the concierge booth searching for the right one!) we encoutered different people. Strong-willed teenagers, spoiled brats, generous parents and aggressive mothers. We even made some ("somehow") friends! The flaws and unjust methods in Glorietta caused all this. Such a scandal! To think we waited 3 hours to get a ticket and got none!


Thankfully, Eevee had an extra ticket. And we met a guy who sold his ticket to us for Php 300. Well, it may seem and is pricey but when we saw BoysLikeGirls practicing on stage, specifically Martin Johnson, we lost all reason and rational thoughts. We grew desperate. Man, I was even PRAYING and BEGGING to get just one more ticket!


I forgot all about the Meet-And-Greet or the CD signing. I just wanted to be there. Lower the expectations to gain satisfactory results I guess.


And wow. This is the first time I went that crazy ever in my life. In front of other people that is. :) It was such a great experience. A "Great Escape" from the stereotypes. And man! We're they so NICE and COOL and HOT! [[Yes yes. This is still me speaking. Fanpire/Fangirl me.]] They were so humble and awesome! Just plain WOW. Even though I had no material remembrance of today, I think I'll remember this moment forever. This "Great Escape."


When I realized BoysLikeGirls was coming to the Philippines I was on a: Dance Hall Drug.
When we were lining up, then realizing something... bad, I was: Learning to Fall.
When I saw Martin Johnson for the first time, I was: Heels Over Head.
When we finally got tickets, I was: On Top of The World.
During the concert, I was on: The Great Escape.
When it all ended, up until now, I'm learning to: Let Go.


BoysLikeGirls ♥